it can be lonely being a grad student.

i wonder how many friends i'll have left after i graduate.

insatiable.

Prader-Willi syndrome is also frequently associated with an extreme and insatiable appetite, often resulting in morbid obesity.

today was just one of those days..

i likey.

i like this song.

Under Your Smile(Tim Reimherr)

Could I sit for a while under Your smile and not say a word.
‘Cause the cry of my heart is to be set apart and I know You’ve heard.
I’ve turned from all the ways and the choices that I made that were hurting You.
So I’ll trust and believe that You’ve washed me clean and I’m pleasing You.

Chorus:
I don’t want to be anywhere else but by Your side.
I don’t want to be anything less than pure in Your eyes.
I am Yours, You are mine
Beyond time nothing will separate us, Lord
Hold me now in Your arms till forever comes

Could I sit at Your feet, feel Your gaze upon me
As I trust You’re near
All the words that You speak are life unto me
And I need to hear
Tears flow from my eyes as I realize that You’re wanting me
You can have what You see, but please take all of me
You’re my only hope.

some fresh air.

Every day will be busy but it is our choice how we handle each day. Will we just check things off a list? or count down the minutes? Or will we take the time to get some fresh air, take a deep breath and refresh ourselves with God's promises of new mercies every morning (and every minute) of every day?

I'm in my second semester of clinicals now at predominately chinese-speaking pediatric clinic. Ithought that with time my anxieties would lessen and i'd be able to enjoy my time with patients more. Instead, with more time spent there, come increased responsibilities, more things others expect me to learn and know how to do, but more importantly, more things that I myself wish I knew how to do. Today I was feeling overwhelmed. Translating my spotty medical knowledge into Mandarin, trying to understand what it was that parents were telling me, and trying to chart it all down in a timely and accurate manner was getting to me. Why does it take me 1 hour to see a patient when my preceptor sees 3-4/hour? I guess I let a few of my feelings slide because she gently approached me today, reminding me that she's been at this for 20 years, and not to worry.

I took a long lunch break today, taking time to walk around my neighborhood and getting my mind off of things. For some strange reason a Christmas carol popped into my head, during which I wondered why Christmas carols are only sang during the holiday seasons. It reminded me of Jesus' love for us, how he never got frustrated with his disciples but kept explaining things to them in different ways, certain that they would understand eventually. God had called them to Jesus' side, and each action that they performed and each statement was well thought out and known to God before it even happened. Similarly, I was encouraged that I am in the same situation. God has placed me here, at this time, with these people for a purpose and a reason. This is all planned out, and God is holding my hand this entire time. There is nothing to freak out over, nothing to stress out about.

A verse I love that a sister shared with me:

"If I rise on the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand will hold me fast." Psalm 139: 9-10